"udahan aja deh"

kata yang mudah yang selalu kamu ucapkan saat kita ada dalam masalah, begitu sangat mudahkah kata itu terucap darimu? tidakkah kau coba berfikir sebelum berucap kata itu? tidakkah kau berniat untuk mempertahankan semua ini? apa arti sayang mu untuk kisah yang singkat ini? apa? tak bisakah kau jelaskan sedikit alasan untuk meninggalkan ku dan menyudahi semua ini begitu saja?

terlalu singkat
ku kira kisah ini akan menjadi kisah yang abadi
tapi
ternyata kandas begitu saja 
ku kira kisah ini akan menjadi kisah yang berbeda
namun ternyata sama saja 
dan selalu berakhir seperti ini

selalu berakhir dengan kekecewaan

Wish You Were Here

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you
It's not like that at all
There's a girl
That gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walked through it


And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here


Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.


I love
The way you are
It's who I am
Don't have to try hard
We always say
Say it like it is
And the truth
Is that I really mi-I-iss


All those crazy things you said (things you said)
You left them running through my head (through my head)
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did (things we did)
Didn't think about it, just went with it (went with it)
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here


Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.


No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(Let go, oh, oh)

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(Let go let go let go let go let go let go let go)


Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here (I wish you were here)
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

Damn, Damn, Damn (Damn)
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here (Here)
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

Sedih…
Ku tahu kini perasaanmu…
kepadaku..

Sedih..
Saat engkau tak yakin kepadaku..
akan cintaku..

Jalan Berliku takkan membuatku..
Menyerah akan cinta kita..

Tatap mataku dan kau akan tahu..
semuanya yang kurasakan..

Aku bertahan karna ku yakin cintaku kepadamu..
sesering kau coba tuk mematikan hatiku..
takkan terjadi karna ku tahu kau hanya untukku..

aku bertahan ku akan tetap pada pendirianku
sekeras kau coba tuk membunuh cintaku..
dan aku tahu kau hanya untukku…

Tatap mataku dan kau akan tahu…
Semuanya yang kurasakan….

Aku bertahan karna ku yakin cintaku kepadamu..
sesering kau coba tuk mematikan hatiku..
takkan terjadi karna ku tahu kau hanya untukku..

Aku bertahan ku akan tetap pada pendirianku
sekeras kau coba tuk membunuh cintaku..
dan aku tahu kau hanya untukku…

Aku bertahan ku akan tetap pada pendirianku
sekeras kau coba tuk membunuh cintaku..
dan aku tahu kau hanya untukku…

You Mean Everything

I'm so lucky to have you in my life, you make my world gaudier, everytime I wake up, I always smilling. I'm always thinking if, am I just dreaming? cause you're the most marvelous dream I ever dream.

Thanks God, You sent him to me

You're the sun which shines in my sky, the reason why I'm always inspired, I'll never leave you, I'll fight for you no matter what. Cause, You mean everything to me babe ;))

Dear : Salman Hafizh

Finally, Thanks God I Found Him

I want you to know that since the day we met I’ve fallen deeply in love with you. There are no words to express the gratitude I feel in my heart that you came into my life, and how you make every day so special. You are my life, my heart, my soul. You are my best friend, my one true love, my one and only. I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I’ll love you more tomorrow than I do today.

Loving you is the only thing that makes life worth living. Day by day, my love for you becomes overwhelming, and I can’t handle it when I don’t see or even talk to you every day. A day without you in my life is like a day without sunshine, a day without food, or a day without air. I need you when I’m cold to keep me warm; I need you in the rain to keep me dry; I need you in my life to keep me happy. 

You make me feel wonderful. You give me strength when I just can’t carry on and I truly treasure that. Every moment spent together is another one of my dreams coming true.

When I met you, my life could not have been in a worse state. My heart had been broken too many times to count and life just didn't seem worth living anymore. Then you came along.

From the first time I laid eyes on you, I knew that you would be someone that would make me smile again. You had such a warm, soft look on your face that I knew there was comfort and friendship in your heart. We started out as friends and you were the rock I needed in my life. I soon began to realize that what I was feeling for you was more than a friendship... something so overwhelming and wonderful that I couldn't even believe it myself. You opened my heart to new and wonderful things! You showed me what love really is and showed me that I was worth loving.

You have completed me in more ways than you could ever imagine! The love you have given to me is sometimes so hard to believe that I still have to pinch myself to make sure it's really in my life!

I'm so very thankful to share this unbelievable love with you! I heart you <3

Tulus - Kisah Sebentar

Denganmu senang hati terasa
Bangun dari mimpiku tahu aku tak sendiri
Matahari pun serasa lebih cerah
Dengan kecup manismu ku mulai melangkah

Ku nikmati tiap detikku dengan namamu di hatiku
Ku rasa bahagia dan hati berbunga-bunga
Kau buatku tergila-gila, tunduk hati aku setia
Selayaknya sihir kau buatku terjatuh

Tapi tak berlangsung lama
Kau tinggalkan aku

Kau pergi berjejak tanya

Ayo ingat kata-katamu
Kau tak akan tinggalkan aku
Ayo ingat kata-katamu
Selamanya kamu hanya untuk aku

Ayo ingat kata-katamu
Sayang cinta kamu segalanya
Ayo ingat kata-katamu
Selamanya kamu hanya untuk aku

Ayo ingat kata-katamu
Kau tak akan tinggalkan aku
Ayo ingat kata-katamu
Selamanya kamu hanya untuk aku

Ayo ingat kata-katamu
Sayang cinta kamu segalanya
Ayo ingat kata-katamu
Selamanya kamu hanya untuk aku

Ayo ingat kata-katamu
Kau tak akan tinggalkan aku
Ayo ingat kata-katamu
Selamanya kamu hanya untuk aku

Ayo ingat kata-katamu
Sayang cinta kamu segalanya

Ayo ingat kata-katamu
Selamanya kamu hanya untuk aku
Selamanya kamu hanya untuk aku
Selamanya kamu hanya untuk aku
Selamanya kamu hanya untuk aku

Denganmu senang hati terasa

Maybe that's the first dating and the last dating ...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa <///3

You make me fly so so so so so high
And now you make me falling down
So deep <///3

Christian Boutista - Since I Found You

I think of you in everything that i doTo be with you what ever it takes i'll doCause you my love, you all my heart desiresYou've lighten up my life forever i'm alive
Since i found you my world seems so brand newYou've show me the love i never knewYour presence is what my whole life throughSince i found you my life begin so newNow who needs a dream when there is youFor all of my dreams came trueSince i found you
Your love shines brightThrough all the corners of my heart
Maybe you are my dearest heartI give you all i have my heart, my soul, my lifeMy destiny is youForever true... i'm so in love with you
Since i found you my world seems so brand newYou've show me the love i never knewYour presence is what my whole life throughSince i found you my life begin so newNow who needs a dream when there is youFor all of my dreams came trueSince i found you
My heart forever true...In love with you..

AND NOW, I JUST CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU.
YOU ALWAYS IN MY MIND !!

YOU. <3

aaaaaa maybe called it love <3
I dunno how can I'm falling in love with him
and He really drive me crazy everytime!

I finally find someone that I've been looking for
I think you have to know this!
You're the only one that really touches my heart

But i just try to let it flow
Cause i don't wanna feel disappointed again <//3

There are no words to express how I feel about you. I constantly search for the words, and they all seem less than I truly feel. You are my life, my heart, and my soul. You are my best friend. You are my one true love. I still remember the day we first met. I knew that you were the one I was meant to be with forever. As the years went by and we drifted apart, I still held onto the memory of you. I thought of you every day, and dreamed of you each night.

Just when I thought you had forgotten me, you would call and make all my dreams seem real. The sound of your voice on the line, was the sweetest sound I would ever find. Then one day you gave me a call, and told me I might have a chance to rectify it all. My heart was beating hard within my chest. My hand was shaking and I could barely breathe. Then you came out to see me and I knew it was meant to be. Those were the sweetest days, of memories of the past. It went so quickly, I wanted it to last.
The day you left, I wanted to die. You called me again, your voice on the line. I had to be near you, lying on your chest. I need to show you, that you were the best. So I made the decision to tell you how I feel. When you said you felt the same, I felt it was a dream. I packed up my stuff and altered my life. I never looked back, now you will make me your wife.

I am on a cloud, living in a dream, and a few days from now, it will really feel real. I wrote this letter for you to keep, and when you need a reminder of how I feel. I've said it before and I'll say it again, words cannot express how you make me feel. I make this promise to you my dear, to love you the way that you love me. I now look to the future and forget the past, your life is mine and we will make it last. I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I'll love you more tomorrow than I do today. With all my heart I am forever yours.

Love Always and Forever,

Dear : you'll be mine *dream


You mean the world to me and I care about you so deeply that it hurts for the short time that we are not together each day. My every thought and breath, I draw from you and I truly do love you.

I love you and you are my world. You are the most sweetest, most precious man in my life. All my life I prayed for someone like you and I thank God that I finally found you. Love, promise me that you will always be mine. I know in my heart our love will never die. You will always be a part of me and I am a part of you indefinitely.

I don't find enough words to describe how I feel about you. You possess all the color and beauty of heavens, lush and satiny. Do you know how much I hunger for your gentle touch and the warmth embrace of your body?

I love you; you are my every heartbeat and my every breath.

Love always,

<3

In life, we receive a wonderful opportunity, and that is to love. Love comes in many forms. You love people in different ways and for different reasons, depending upon how they have touched your life. Love is a very powerful word and can describe a multitude of feelings, but its main context carries the same meaning.

I want to tell you that the love I have for you is undying. It is a love that is strong and enduring and will stand the test of time. I truly feel blessed that you have become a part of my life and I cannot wait for the day that we can join our lives together. I want to lie next to you at night and fall asleep in your arms, only to wake to your beautiful smile. I want to share in your joys and sorrows. I want to be your everything. You are everything to me.

You are everything I do. You see and bring out the best in me. You are the one I want to share everything with - my thoughts, hopes and dreams. Thinking of you makes my heart feel full. You are such a source of inspiration for me. I will forever be indebted to you for all you have brought to my life. So, to repay you, I promise you my heart and all the love in it for the rest of my life....

<3 HOW BEAUTIFUL LAST NIGHT WHEN I MEET YOU <3!

how can i move in when i'm still in love with you. emang gak mudah rasanya buat move on itu, apalagi kalau udah bener2 tulus sayang,  sudah hampir 10 bulan aku putus dari kamu. tapi sampai saat ini perasaan itu gak pernah berkurang buat kamu, sangat sulit dan enggak mudah rasanya untuk buka hati sama yang lain, entah harus gimana lagi, setiap coba menjauh, kamu datang, setiap mau dekatin kamu menjauh, sebenernya harus gimana lagi?

senyum mu, tawa mu, riang mu
tak dapat mengembalikan kerapuhan hati
hanya tulus kasih dan setia mu
yang mampu mengembalikan utuhnya hati

kau hancurkan hati ku
dan biarkan semua berlalu
tanpa merasakan rasa ku di hati

kegelisahan dan kegundahan sikap ku
telah menerjemahkan kematian hati
yang hanya dapat hidup kembali
jika nurani kejujuran ungkap yang terbaik

aku inginkan segala cinta, cita dan asa ku
yang bukan hanya angan belaka semata
benciku, benci mu tak hanya ucap
tapi sikap yang mengartikannya
kini rasa ku hanya sepi
sepi yang abadi .....

Apakah ini akhir penantian ataukah ini hanya tak berarti
Ketika suatu saat kan tiba
Tercipta satu rasa yang tak mungkin bisa terungkap
Takkan habis ku menangisi bintang yang tak mungkin bersinar
Di mata ku hanya ada satu sisi
Yang tak mungkin kau memahami warna cinta yang aku beri
Aku berharap kau mengerti suatu saat nanti

langit dan teduh

kepadamu, aku menyimpan cemburu dalam harapan yang tertumpuk oleh sesak dipenuhi ragu

terlalu banyak ruang yang tak bisa aku buka

dan, kebersamaan cuma memperbanyak ruang tertutup

mungkin, jalan kita tidak bersimpangan

ya, jalanmu dan jalanku.

meski, diam-diam aku masih saja menatap mu dengan cinta yang malu-malu

aku dan kamu

seperti hujan dan teduh

pernahkah kau mendengar kisah mereka?

hujan dan teduh ditakdirkan bertemmu

tapi tidak bersama dalam perjalanan

seperti itulah cinta kita

seperti menebak langit abu-abu

mungkin, jalan kita tidak bersimpangan.

#langitdanteduh

Berharap

Apakah ini akhir penantian ataukah ini hanya tak berarti
Ketika suatu saat kan tiba
Tercipta satu rasa yang tak mungkin bisa terungkap
Takkan habis ku menangisi bintang yang tak mungkin bersinar
Di mata ku hanya ada satu sisi
Yang tak mungkin kau memahami warna cinta yang aku beri
Aku berharap kau mengerti suatu saat nanti

move on

I wanna story about my complicated love story ...
Firstly, I'm falling in love with him because I always meet him when he plays the guitar, he always playing guitar very good. yaaaa maybe you can call him master of playing the guitar. hehe and in addition, he also has a good voice, yaaap I fall in love because his voice when i hear he sing a song mihihi ;;)

 
Until one day we can be in a relationship. I have a problem with him (my boyfriend). Called him “F”. we have been dating each other only four months, since we were in second semester on our campus, yap my campus same like him, and same major too. Although only four months we have been dating, I feel very sure that we love each other, now it’s time for me to get serious.

Unfortunately, I dunno why, always there problems between us, that’s doesn’t really mind. at first I thought my boyfriend had power to defend our love. But then he surrendered, he said he love me but I feel different with him and that’s changed my feel for him, yaa I can’t believe him again like the first I feel very sure that he really love me.

One day, I caught him cheating with another girl. (again again again) and I don't wanna hear his explanation for making me sure that he wasn't mistaken. I've so tired!! I just left him. I just blocked all his contact! It means I had to ended our relationship.

For this, I was shocked, my heart was broken, our relationship was ended just at the time when I really love him, when I was with him, we were happy, we had a lot in common and there were no conflict. The truth was, we separated only because another girl (bitch!!!!)

For the time being I’m very upset, when I miss him, I call him, we can eat together, talk and story together for hours. He can come to my house everytime he want, and he ever lived in my house for two months, yaaap our family approve of our relationship ever since the very first time, very very very very very approve of our relationship, we act like dating because he loves me, too. The real problem is he can’t show if he really love me and he went to another girl, yaaa maybe he won’t to get serious yet with me.

Now, already eight months I can’t be moved, I can’t forget him, I still really love him, someday I ever talked to him that I still love him, but he said, he can’t back to me again, I dunno why, he isn’t give me the reason.

So, should I forget him? The only that I trully love? Or else, should I just wait and dream that one day he will back to me? Hmmm although I know, sometimes dream just stay as a dream.

But, if I positive think ………..

For this reason I’d say that there is nothing I can do except forget him and go on with my normal life. Hopefully I can find another who better than him and live happily forever without him. Yaaaaap  just let it flow!!! And really that’s so easy not difficult!!! :’D

 

you : fml

bad memories

when I was in senior high school, I got PMDK from University of Indonesia, I was happy. Firstly, my parents were happy at the beginning, but afterwards I don’t know why they were changing their minds, they didn’t allowed me to apply there. I was shock, I couldn’t believe that, it was my dream to get into that university, I was pleading to be allowed to get there but they stick up with their decision. They keep giving their reason so that I could give up my dream. And they advised me to enroll in Jakarta State Islamic University, it was difficult to accept that. But slowly I tried to obey them, because however parents blessing is the most important, and I think if I disobey them and forced my dream to study there, I’ll messed up my study. Finally, I decide to follow my parents will to pursue my study at Jakarta State Islamic University. I hope it’s the start of my succesfull life.

gloomy

Start from today
We go on our separate ways
Your life and mine let it end just here

Sorry, the time for loving you is over
I have suffered to get a room in your heart
And for this time I agree with you
You and I aren't made for each other
You've changed.
No, maybe I have changed
The time had changed me, like you've said ... 

Nothing is the same anymore

Sorry, I waste your time, my time, and our time ... 

For thinking that what we have is precious
Waste our time to match us back
The truth is all the things is just a pretense

I'm tired. No, not that I gave up my love
I just give a way for a decision ... Especially for me
And now it's time for me ... To be faithful to my self ... 

That nothing's wrong with me
I was just to blind to see the truth

Later if you meet me again take off your pretense .. I hate it
Start from today we go on our separate ways ....

dokter gigi

hellooo... gue baru aja selesai dari dokter gigi nih, mampir di sebuah cafe, dan buat curhat di blog ini, sekalian lunch hihi jadi gini, dari pagi gue mau berangkat ke rumah sakit bagian poli gigi nya gue udah nervous banget, entahlah rasa nervous nya ngelebihin orang mau akad nikah sepertinya---" waiting .. waiting ... sampai tiba saatnya giliran gue masuk ke ruangan dokter gigi itu :" niatnya itu waktunya gue mau cabut 3 gigi gue yang mau di "behel" katanya mesti cabut tuh gigi biar renggang dan nanti geser gitu haha tapi pas masuk ruangan cabut gigi, dokter nanya apa obat yang harus diminum sebelum cabut gigi udah abis? gue bilang belum karena ada satu obat yang alergi buat gue jadi gue stop minum obat itu, yaap tarik nafas saking takutnya gue, akhirnya dokter bilang, kalau gitu gue belum bisa cabut gigi hari itu, katanya kalo obat yang alergi buat gue itu gak diminum (antibiotik) itu bakal nimbulin tetanus :"( soalnya gigi graham gue yang mau dicabut itu akarnya panjang, kalau gak pake obat itu ya efeknya serem banget :"( akhirnya tadi di dokter gigi gue cuma di bersihin karang gigi nya dan cetak foto, terus dikasih pengganti obat yang alergi itu deh, disuruh diabisin, dan hari senin gue wajib ke rumah sakit poli gigi itu lagi buat "cabut gigi" :"( guys do'ain gue ya supaya cabut gigi hari senin nanti gue gak takut dan lancar nggak berasa sakitnya :"") aamiin .. gue lanjut lunch dulu ya nih guys :9 

hello♥

helloooo .. ini blog baru banget gue buat loh -,- sebenernya udah lama gue udah punya blog, karena waktu itu buat bareng temen gue 'nadya amanda' dan pas mau posting gue lupa akun log in nya, jadilah gue buat blog baru ini, semoga blog ini bakal rajin gue isi yaaa hihi ;;)